cry
I can not write, I have writer's block, zero imagination, I hate xD
Friday, October 29, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Wizards Of Waverly Place Wallpapers
Considerations Around the world
Yes, yes, I know. I gave up for months this poor live-journal (though I doubt that anyone give a damn about). The reason for my temporary disappearance is that I'm back at home, and all inclination I had to document my daily adventures strange has passed. Even here in Italy because I understood nothing vaguely interesting as China.
However, they are repatriated and I found myself in the usual scatafascio that our society is experiencing. And sure, I speak of society, not so much of the country. That Italy is getting a little 'to the dogs we realized everyone, but I will start with speeches that are so fashionable today, like: "This country is a disgusting," "Welcome to Italy" "E' Italy we deserve. " I really believe that other countries are made better? We're all getting worse, the politicians a bit 'all over the world can only put the clowns who enjoy fattening pretend to govern, bimbiminkia the slaves of the new fashions and illiteracy are growing visibly, not to mention teenagers who call themselves atheists because it "is cool" and show a close-minded Catholics worthy of the worst bigots.
do not even know why I'm writing this, but after yet another round in that pigsty that is now Facebook (and where I willingly through water), ungrammatical and full of links praising absolute ignorance, I went up such a anger that I had to open the livejournal and vomiting over a bit 'of my contempt for the younger generation. Obviously I do not want a bunch of grass, but to judge the average level of inteligente shown in facebook, I must say that we are being bad, very bad indeed.
Yes, yes, I know. I gave up for months this poor live-journal (though I doubt that anyone give a damn about). The reason for my temporary disappearance is that I'm back at home, and all inclination I had to document my daily adventures strange has passed. Even here in Italy because I understood nothing vaguely interesting as China.
However, they are repatriated and I found myself in the usual scatafascio that our society is experiencing. And sure, I speak of society, not so much of the country. That Italy is getting a little 'to the dogs we realized everyone, but I will start with speeches that are so fashionable today, like: "This country is a disgusting," "Welcome to Italy" "E' Italy we deserve. " I really believe that other countries are made better? We're all getting worse, the politicians a bit 'all over the world can only put the clowns who enjoy fattening pretend to govern, bimbiminkia the slaves of the new fashions and illiteracy are growing visibly, not to mention teenagers who call themselves atheists because it "is cool" and show a close-minded Catholics worthy of the worst bigots.
do not even know why I'm writing this, but after yet another round in that pigsty that is now Facebook (and where I willingly through water), ungrammatical and full of links praising absolute ignorance, I went up such a anger that I had to open the livejournal and vomiting over a bit 'of my contempt for the younger generation. Obviously I do not want a bunch of grass, but to judge the average level of inteligente shown in facebook, I must say that we are being bad, very bad indeed.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Craigslist Triumph Bonneville
@ 9mm2 2010-10-03T22: 20:00
I was born I was born to be with you in this place and time
After that and ever
then I never had any doubts
only break rhyme
This foolishness can leave a bruised heart
was a cold winter when I was born, it was cold, the snow was falling slowly on the streets of the city deserted. It was Christmas. Everyone was sitting around a table laden to celebrate a birth, or for more, to celebrate a feast has become commercial.
In the semi-silence of a city torn lament the sky. A baby cried in the cold of the street, his mother had died from the fatigue of childbirth, but it was still Christmas and that infant was (very) lucky, because that road was just passing an old man attracted to those complaints. Just saw him and wrapped him in his huge arms and ran away to the nearest hospital.
It was only thanks to him that that little child managed to escape. That child was me.
My name was Omar that meant "live long," but because I said I was? Why I will not call you so, no, I'm not dead, I just became a she, do not ask me why but I felt I was having, indeed, be. Since that night I passed
twenty-seven birth, twenty-seven long years in which that gentleman saved me from certain death.
After his death I decided to change my name to Esperanza, hoping for a new birth.
Because of my desire to be a woman I had to make many speeches, but after they could not tell the difference between me and a real woman, my voice has always been female, the only particular that distinguished me, it was a gift that women are lacking.
I had no difficulty in finding work, although I did not have great references, I was taken because I had a strong will.
worked in a business office, and every time I headed for my desk, I looked around noticing one thousand empty eyes, without any flame which shines in them, and each time was so until one day I saw him, he so young, so fresh, had a look full of life and you could see the flame burning.
I was struck by the sight and unconsciously snapped in me the desire to defend him not to become like those people that lived in this office, if not the world.
I got up abruptly and almost walked to the young boy with a big smile and asked him if he needed a hand, just opened, his lips turned out a sound so clean and clear but not sharp indeed, His answer was a kindness, and when I heard his words of assent, I printed it in his face a smile of a child.
I showed him his position, explained his duties and then asked him if he wanted a coffee machine, I smiled and we walked downstairs. Here he began
our first real conversation, I learned his name, Caleb, I explained the origin of that name or that of the Old Testament, Caleb was the name of one of the twelve spies sent by Moses to Israel: the Israelites who left Egypt with Moses, he and Joshua were the only ones who survived to see the Promised Land.
I was fascinated by the way he explained the origin of that name so particular, and I saw the flame glow first became an uncontrollable fire, I realized that he liked to talk about his origins, so I kept him more questions. Each
his response was so thorough that I felt as satisfied, the thing that I eroded and that the well had yes and no culture of 19 years.
When it was time to return to the positions of the conversation I thanked him and he blushed slightly replied that for him this was not anything special.
When I returned to the house that my gentle "father" had given me as I got up tiring heeled shoes and climbed the stairs to direct me to the bathroom to get me a nice hot bath and refreshing.
When the tank was filled and surrounded me we sank up to the end enjoying the pleasure you gave me to feel the hot water to give me the chills. When I came out of the water burst out
laugh noticing fine lines that were forming on the fingers, those wrinkles that typically come when you're too much time soaking in water.
Gironzolai home without a goal in a bathrobe when I passed a window, I noticed that there was a beautiful starry sky, that picture reminds me of an episode 10 years ago when I ran away from home for a fight he had with the son of my adoptive father, for he was just a crappy brand advantage.
That memory came back so strong so they seem to relive it again, I still remember the words of the song I was listening to my i-pod:
Well if you wanted honesty, that's All You Had To Say.
I Never Want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend Tooke,
Remember When you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay I'm not okay
I'm not okay You wear me out
I was angry with myself because those words to me were true, I was just a tick, since I had brought in his house I had never made me proud of him despite saying the opposite.
I was not worthy of the great love that gave me relief and I had, but he constantly repeated to me that he was proud of me than to him was like a second child and that I should not be cruel to myself.
His real son looked at me with hate and always loved me as the object of his revenge games, he hit me, but was careful not to do it at home, so when I came home and my father asked me what were those bruises and that & rsquo ; black eye, I had to invent excuses why I could not cause pain to the man who doted on her eldest son and I had saved from a life of hardship and suffering.
I walked, I remember it was raining, I had no 'umbrella but I did not mind being alone and wanted to understand the reason of my existence
But you really need to listen to me Because I'm
telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me) I'm not okay
I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay I'm not okay
I'm not okay (Okay )
I found myself the next night as I wandered aimlessly with an empty stomach for the city,
when I got back home I saw my father sitting on a chair and bent on itself, when I look up to see who was in company of the police officer noticed his bright eyes full of tears, at that moment I realized that I was a fool, I had only made things worse and what made me suffer the most was seeing my brother in standing by my father who had an evil smile on his lips, he had achieved his goal, he wanted me to hate my father, but something went wrong in his plans because my father would never have felt hatred and resentment towards me, as demonstrated and then when he ran to hug me and cry, I whispered to him no matter alone, he felt my absence.
When I walked away from my window flash-back was gone and I felt the taste of my tears streaming down my face, I gathered with my tongue, I did not want to lose them as stupid is this desire.
arrived at the front door of my room and having the time, I decided to put me in bed for a refreshing night's sleep that night, Morpheus took me the gift of beautiful dreams of a happy childhood in the company of man, the first man I loved her.
The next morning I woke up with the gentle caress of a sunbeam that filtered slowly from the open space of the tents only to end up on my cheek.
Before getting up I stayed in bed for a few moments, I loved that feeling of peace and bliss that comes when you can stay in bed for lounging.
When finally taken the courage to get out of bed I took the robe that was on chair nearby and put on the run, went downstairs and walked to the kitchen, grabbed a slice of bread and put it in the toaster and while the bread is toasted took the jam and orange juice.
Just in time to finish breakfast and my phone rang, unknown number, I wondered who could be at that hour, when I answered I heard a familiar voice, he was my boss wanted me to go immediately to the office of overtime, reluctantly accepted it, looked at her with bitterness the table and took a ride in the slice of bread to eat it while I was preparing.
I took the first hand and I fiondai under clothes in the car, turned on the radio as usual and started my to sing the songs that went to the station.
When I arrived in the huge building let out a sigh of resignation, it was already like that.
entrance of the office was there to welcome Caleb, who with a smile a bit 'embarrassed I gently opened the door, I could not smile and say thank you.
Most places were free so we decided to sit so close that we could help. After nearly an hour of work a woman came through the door shouting followed by a man with dark glasses and dressed in a very formal way that was trying to appease, to which I got up from his chair and walked to the lady asking the reason for so much turmoil, the woman looked at me with malice and pushed me making me fall.
I looked up and noticed that he was right there for me I held out my hand to help raise me and put me back my skirt aggiustai session.
We continued our work all day and except for that lady, there were no other cases were in disarray.
It was 17 pm and I was finally able to sell off a lot of work, when I saw him approach my desk with his chair, looked at me for a while ', and who became courage she asked if I wanted to take a walk with him, it was case for a date?
agreed, the boy surprised me by the day, at the beginning we went to a park nearby, the weather was the best and the air was brisk and gave cheer, or maybe all those feelings were caused by his presence? I kept walking but I did not notice that he had stopped to look at a fountain with jets of water that created stunning choreography, I joined him and looked at his face I noticed a lone tear running up those cheeks for the occasion had become red and opened my eyes and instinctively I did it once and then a big hug, I heard a faint voice coming from him, he explained his reaction, it was all due to a accident three years ago, his sister is 5 years always charmed to see this fountain, and every time he took her to see and occasionally stopped to play with some boats built by him for the occasion.
He saw her always smiling, when a bad day at the park back after a hit-the road under the influence of alcohol and drugs did not finish off the road and hit his sister without he could do nothing, the races were in vain in the hospital, the impact was too direct, but the thing that made him the most trouble is that this pirate was still alive and had just taken the points on the license had been empty apologies and reparations made by man, the missing sister was unbridgeable.
I was gripped by a pang in my heart, I shook him even more, I took her face in her hands and turned toward me, looking into his eyes told him that no one was more distressed that I was there now, when I realized what I had just finished saying I was Caleb with his face resting on my chest, crying, but this time of joy, never stopped thanking me over, I gave him a light kiss on her hair and told him I was everything ok.
I took him in a coffee shop to get something and relax for a bit ', I ordered me a coffee with chocolate and cream for him and a strawberry milk shake.
We started to talk about this and that, in his eyes I saw a different vein, wistful for a moment I was afraid of seeing off the flame had hit me.
After clearing the cups to the end he offered to accompany me back home, I was reluctant at the beginning he lived across, but eventually managed to persuade me.
arrived home I stopped to look under the keys, however I felt agitated and disoriented, I tried to play down with a smile and a joke but I was not in time to finish speaking when he had risen a bit 'on the tips and she kissed me, I felt his warm lips on mine, I am wide-eyed in amazement them closed in a little while and let me go to that kiss so sweet, typical of that adolescent phase where is prey pulse when pulled away slowly from my lips I saw him all red and stammering apologized but had long wished to do so.
I was still upset from happening, and my face was a mix of amazement and disbelief that what he interpreted as a rejection and a "violence", when I was able to return to me smiled sweetly and with the warmer tone and the sweet I thanked her, he was blown away by these words of mine and went back to stutter, he was so sweet when he did, in that I put my hand in her hair and started to mess up.
I left him with a smile, went into the house and I slumped in the doorway, I was happy.
ran to the computer and started to check the mail first and then finish that story I was writing for a while 'the existence of vampires, werewolves, demons and other magical creatures, but I had to stop immediately because of my head in the clouds.
So I opted to watch something on television, I hopped from channel to channel before you find anything remotely or an interesting documentary on the Eastern civilizations.
The next morning I slept late, staying in bed I enjoyed the feeling of protection that only knows how to make your bed, that protect the world from bad cold, and even as I was little I curled up under blankets to cover all .
I stayed in that position for several minutes, I decided to go out only when I saw that it was already 11:30, I took the phone that was on the table and with a gesture quite automatically checked and any calls or messages, and strangely I found 2 missed calls and messages, checked for first calls, one was a colleague of Anette's office and the second my brother Max, I I asked her why she called me, just him.
The reason was explained when I read the message, "you see gay Mint to bring your dirty buttocks that we discuss here at home" was always "very" nice to me.
I prepared myself, I took the car keys and walked to the driveway, but as soon as I opened the door I saw that Caleb was about to knock on the door, completely shocked.
I asked him what he was doing here in a very awkward and he told me he was here to ask one thing, but it was nothing important, smiled, told him that I had commitments for today very important and we have postponed our conversation upon my return, nodded.
I waved as I walked into the car and starts to move, to leave behind the calm that had enveloped me for several months since the last visit I made to my old house after the death of my adoptive father.
It took me an hour to get to your destination and when I found myself at the feet of the dwelling had a thrill, all of our meetings had not gone at all well.
I knocked and after a few moments I found myself in front of me, Max, was a sight quite disturbing, with top hair and eyes strangely too light a color very close to the ice and a color evil grin.
made me come in and I sat down on the couch he walked slowly and sat beside me, took my chin with his left hand and made me turn towards him, I asked him what he should talk to him and came in response ; to my lips in a whisper and told me that I had tried because he felt "much" missing me I was always infuse her brother, looked sideways at him, and he and I when we were brothers.
I tried to rebel from that taken but he was faster than me and I stretched out completely on the couch, I found him on top of me, I was confused and disoriented, what was he doing?
I slipped a hand under his shirt and whispered in my ear closer than it was exciting that my puzzled look, I divincolai and I jumped up from the sofa and went to the opposite side of the room, in a corner, but it was a big mistake I had been trapped alone, he rose slowly and always with a sneer, when he reached the corner where I stood with her arms pinned me against the wall of the paths escape, looked at me and then spoke again, "You know, I've always found fascinating, intelligent, we are left disappointed when you did the work, but now you are not instill too bad, "I was paralyzed, I could not understand how it was possible, he felt attracted to me? So why had always been bad for me? I did not have time to find answers to these questions that I had knocked him down and I had unbuttoned his shirt, slowly I felt her hands slide over my body when he went down as she smiled, looked at me and thanked me have not done anything at that point, I was still overwhelmed, paralyzed, I could not react to the movements.
Everything happened so fast, I was naked beneath him, I saw his body move inside me, pain, pleasure and anger, why?
When he finished he asked me who was that guy you went out and if he knew my true nature, his words were like a bolt from the blue, he knew him?
When I was able to return home was too late, I parked the car and walked towards the door, but a presence struck me, he was still waiting for them on the doorstep, blessed sleep leaning against the wall of the house.
I looked at him, made me so tenderly, I opened the door I put down my bag and then walked back, picked him up and took it upstairs to the guest room adagiai him on the bed and tucked the blankets, he was so sweet as he slept, the urge to kiss him was too strong so I leaned over and gave him a tender kiss on the forehead goodnight.
The next morning I awoke early and prepared breakfast for them both, I heard noises coming from upstairs so I went up the stairs to go see and when I opened the door I found a Caleb embarrassed that she covered up the neck with the sheet, I laughed at the sight of taste.
I informed him that breakfast was ready and if he could get it with me, so I left the room for annual leave them a bit 'of intimacy, when he came down he still had a sleepy look, you sat at the table and grabbed the toast with jam and snapped when he finished chewing apologized for falling asleep on the doorstep causing discomfort and especially thanked me for having hosted for the night.
When I asked him why he had stayed there said it was left to talk to me now that I thought I should probably talk to him yet I did not want my brother to tell us something about my true nature, I looked ready to tell him when he catch me unprepared, saying she felt something strong for me, very strong, which I loved.
When I heard those words coming from his lips looked down and my eyes suddenly became lucid, felt tingling in the nose are typical of those when you're about to cry, I tried to restrain myself, but it was useless because he noticed it and was alarmed, I asked if he had said something wrong or that I had could hurt but I denied it, I told him that his words had me filled my heart with joy but I was not really what I looked like, as it was understood he did not understand and asked for an explanation, took a deep breath and began to explain the principle everything that had happened to me, my life and what made me a sex change, I tried not to cry when I noticed his eyes on me that I judged, the end I told him that if he wanted to see again I would understand, stammering he told me that he needed to reflect that it had caught him suddenly. I nodded.
The next day at work there speak to me, so for several days, I for my part I could not look into his eyes, I loved him, I was conscious, I loved him the first time I had seen him, but I could not force it, my days passed slowly and monotonously, were all a work / Max house. spent a little time 'to tease and a bit' to satisfy his perverted desires notwithstanding I otherwise.
I was angry, disappointed and embittered. It had been two months since I told the truth about me in Caleb, I was resigned to the fact that I had lost, I had to make a right, so maybe it was that he must go, but one day on my return from a trip I found the source of the work at home, holding a bouquet of red roses, when he saw me and told me that he thought that what they had for me was not changed even though I was not actually a woman but a man, at which point I burst into tears, I went against him at the beginning and then slowly run into his arms crying and he received me in his arms open, he apologized to me been waiting so long but wanted to be sure of her feelings really, and now he had returned he would not have gone more and that he really loved me, man or woman.
That night we went out to dinner in a classy dinner and half took a velvet box from his tuxedo and put her on the table and then move them to me, I looked at him and he urged me to open the box, and its inside I found a beautiful diamond set in white gold ring, in which he asked me if I wanted to officially become her boyfriend, with tears in his eyes answered with a resounding yes! He was relieved and asked me to lighten the environment if you were to report back to me with the female or male, I laughed.
That night was one of the most beautiful when we got home we passed one of the sweetest nights but at the same time full of passion that never in my life I tried, I was so happy that during intercourse whispered in his ear that he was the right one for me, just for me.
passed six years since we got together and officially passed since that day of fabulous days, everyone's eyes were a normal couple with a boy and a girl, but no one except us knew that we were couples, normal, but not the normal that people are accustomed to seeing.
We were always together, one day while we were at home I spend my brother Max, I opened the shower and I did well to accommodate.
He just saw Caleb tried to smear until, given the limited success of his tactics, he tried one on my nature, but to his surprise Caleb replied that he knew for the past 6 years and now it was so in love with me that he had decided to marry me, so before my brother and I surprised divided between astonishment and joy bowed and asked me to marry him, as happened six years ago, I could not refuse and I nodded, weeping with joy.
The marriage took place in June of that year and it was so gorgeous and beautiful that it seemed a fairytale marriage, I was so happy.
may be true, there is a happy ending for all.
Why does not mean that what began badly must necessarily end badly, never judge a book by its cover, we must strive to understand the true nature of each of us, and just reading our book, we can truly understand those inner us. Never offend those whose tastes different from yours because it is always a form of love and this is important. A huge kiss
spouses
Esperanza and Caleb. \u0026lt;/ div>
Wings of Change (mini story)
(Ps. I have dealt with the argument that the I hear a lot.
For those who asked if my experiment is not so much in the text but rather in the context in which there is the story, this story I had written long ago, but I ashamed to publish it because it felt too much.)
(Ps. I have dealt with the argument that the I hear a lot.
For those who asked if my experiment is not so much in the text but rather in the context in which there is the story, this story I had written long ago, but I ashamed to publish it because it felt too much.)
I was born I was born to be with you in this place and time
After that and ever
then I never had any doubts
only break rhyme
This foolishness can leave a bruised heart
was a cold winter when I was born, it was cold, the snow was falling slowly on the streets of the city deserted. It was Christmas. Everyone was sitting around a table laden to celebrate a birth, or for more, to celebrate a feast has become commercial.
In the semi-silence of a city torn lament the sky. A baby cried in the cold of the street, his mother had died from the fatigue of childbirth, but it was still Christmas and that infant was (very) lucky, because that road was just passing an old man attracted to those complaints. Just saw him and wrapped him in his huge arms and ran away to the nearest hospital.
It was only thanks to him that that little child managed to escape. That child was me.
My name was Omar that meant "live long," but because I said I was? Why I will not call you so, no, I'm not dead, I just became a she, do not ask me why but I felt I was having, indeed, be. Since that night I passed
twenty-seven birth, twenty-seven long years in which that gentleman saved me from certain death.
After his death I decided to change my name to Esperanza, hoping for a new birth.
Because of my desire to be a woman I had to make many speeches, but after they could not tell the difference between me and a real woman, my voice has always been female, the only particular that distinguished me, it was a gift that women are lacking.
I had no difficulty in finding work, although I did not have great references, I was taken because I had a strong will.
worked in a business office, and every time I headed for my desk, I looked around noticing one thousand empty eyes, without any flame which shines in them, and each time was so until one day I saw him, he so young, so fresh, had a look full of life and you could see the flame burning.
I was struck by the sight and unconsciously snapped in me the desire to defend him not to become like those people that lived in this office, if not the world.
I got up abruptly and almost walked to the young boy with a big smile and asked him if he needed a hand, just opened, his lips turned out a sound so clean and clear but not sharp indeed, His answer was a kindness, and when I heard his words of assent, I printed it in his face a smile of a child.
I showed him his position, explained his duties and then asked him if he wanted a coffee machine, I smiled and we walked downstairs. Here he began
our first real conversation, I learned his name, Caleb, I explained the origin of that name or that of the Old Testament, Caleb was the name of one of the twelve spies sent by Moses to Israel: the Israelites who left Egypt with Moses, he and Joshua were the only ones who survived to see the Promised Land.
I was fascinated by the way he explained the origin of that name so particular, and I saw the flame glow first became an uncontrollable fire, I realized that he liked to talk about his origins, so I kept him more questions. Each
his response was so thorough that I felt as satisfied, the thing that I eroded and that the well had yes and no culture of 19 years.
When it was time to return to the positions of the conversation I thanked him and he blushed slightly replied that for him this was not anything special.
When I returned to the house that my gentle "father" had given me as I got up tiring heeled shoes and climbed the stairs to direct me to the bathroom to get me a nice hot bath and refreshing.
When the tank was filled and surrounded me we sank up to the end enjoying the pleasure you gave me to feel the hot water to give me the chills. When I came out of the water burst out
laugh noticing fine lines that were forming on the fingers, those wrinkles that typically come when you're too much time soaking in water.
Gironzolai home without a goal in a bathrobe when I passed a window, I noticed that there was a beautiful starry sky, that picture reminds me of an episode 10 years ago when I ran away from home for a fight he had with the son of my adoptive father, for he was just a crappy brand advantage.
That memory came back so strong so they seem to relive it again, I still remember the words of the song I was listening to my i-pod:
Well if you wanted honesty, that's All You Had To Say.
I Never Want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend Tooke,
Remember When you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay I'm not okay
I'm not okay You wear me out
I was angry with myself because those words to me were true, I was just a tick, since I had brought in his house I had never made me proud of him despite saying the opposite.
I was not worthy of the great love that gave me relief and I had, but he constantly repeated to me that he was proud of me than to him was like a second child and that I should not be cruel to myself.
His real son looked at me with hate and always loved me as the object of his revenge games, he hit me, but was careful not to do it at home, so when I came home and my father asked me what were those bruises and that & rsquo ; black eye, I had to invent excuses why I could not cause pain to the man who doted on her eldest son and I had saved from a life of hardship and suffering.
I walked, I remember it was raining, I had no 'umbrella but I did not mind being alone and wanted to understand the reason of my existence
But you really need to listen to me Because I'm
telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me) I'm not okay
I'm not okay Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay I'm not okay
I'm not okay (Okay )
I found myself the next night as I wandered aimlessly with an empty stomach for the city,
when I got back home I saw my father sitting on a chair and bent on itself, when I look up to see who was in company of the police officer noticed his bright eyes full of tears, at that moment I realized that I was a fool, I had only made things worse and what made me suffer the most was seeing my brother in standing by my father who had an evil smile on his lips, he had achieved his goal, he wanted me to hate my father, but something went wrong in his plans because my father would never have felt hatred and resentment towards me, as demonstrated and then when he ran to hug me and cry, I whispered to him no matter alone, he felt my absence.
When I walked away from my window flash-back was gone and I felt the taste of my tears streaming down my face, I gathered with my tongue, I did not want to lose them as stupid is this desire.
arrived at the front door of my room and having the time, I decided to put me in bed for a refreshing night's sleep that night, Morpheus took me the gift of beautiful dreams of a happy childhood in the company of man, the first man I loved her.
The next morning I woke up with the gentle caress of a sunbeam that filtered slowly from the open space of the tents only to end up on my cheek.
Before getting up I stayed in bed for a few moments, I loved that feeling of peace and bliss that comes when you can stay in bed for lounging.
When finally taken the courage to get out of bed I took the robe that was on chair nearby and put on the run, went downstairs and walked to the kitchen, grabbed a slice of bread and put it in the toaster and while the bread is toasted took the jam and orange juice.
Just in time to finish breakfast and my phone rang, unknown number, I wondered who could be at that hour, when I answered I heard a familiar voice, he was my boss wanted me to go immediately to the office of overtime, reluctantly accepted it, looked at her with bitterness the table and took a ride in the slice of bread to eat it while I was preparing.
I took the first hand and I fiondai under clothes in the car, turned on the radio as usual and started my to sing the songs that went to the station.
When I arrived in the huge building let out a sigh of resignation, it was already like that.
entrance of the office was there to welcome Caleb, who with a smile a bit 'embarrassed I gently opened the door, I could not smile and say thank you.
Most places were free so we decided to sit so close that we could help. After nearly an hour of work a woman came through the door shouting followed by a man with dark glasses and dressed in a very formal way that was trying to appease, to which I got up from his chair and walked to the lady asking the reason for so much turmoil, the woman looked at me with malice and pushed me making me fall.
I looked up and noticed that he was right there for me I held out my hand to help raise me and put me back my skirt aggiustai session.
We continued our work all day and except for that lady, there were no other cases were in disarray.
It was 17 pm and I was finally able to sell off a lot of work, when I saw him approach my desk with his chair, looked at me for a while ', and who became courage she asked if I wanted to take a walk with him, it was case for a date?
agreed, the boy surprised me by the day, at the beginning we went to a park nearby, the weather was the best and the air was brisk and gave cheer, or maybe all those feelings were caused by his presence? I kept walking but I did not notice that he had stopped to look at a fountain with jets of water that created stunning choreography, I joined him and looked at his face I noticed a lone tear running up those cheeks for the occasion had become red and opened my eyes and instinctively I did it once and then a big hug, I heard a faint voice coming from him, he explained his reaction, it was all due to a accident three years ago, his sister is 5 years always charmed to see this fountain, and every time he took her to see and occasionally stopped to play with some boats built by him for the occasion.
He saw her always smiling, when a bad day at the park back after a hit-the road under the influence of alcohol and drugs did not finish off the road and hit his sister without he could do nothing, the races were in vain in the hospital, the impact was too direct, but the thing that made him the most trouble is that this pirate was still alive and had just taken the points on the license had been empty apologies and reparations made by man, the missing sister was unbridgeable.
I was gripped by a pang in my heart, I shook him even more, I took her face in her hands and turned toward me, looking into his eyes told him that no one was more distressed that I was there now, when I realized what I had just finished saying I was Caleb with his face resting on my chest, crying, but this time of joy, never stopped thanking me over, I gave him a light kiss on her hair and told him I was everything ok.
I took him in a coffee shop to get something and relax for a bit ', I ordered me a coffee with chocolate and cream for him and a strawberry milk shake.
We started to talk about this and that, in his eyes I saw a different vein, wistful for a moment I was afraid of seeing off the flame had hit me.
After clearing the cups to the end he offered to accompany me back home, I was reluctant at the beginning he lived across, but eventually managed to persuade me.
arrived home I stopped to look under the keys, however I felt agitated and disoriented, I tried to play down with a smile and a joke but I was not in time to finish speaking when he had risen a bit 'on the tips and she kissed me, I felt his warm lips on mine, I am wide-eyed in amazement them closed in a little while and let me go to that kiss so sweet, typical of that adolescent phase where is prey pulse when pulled away slowly from my lips I saw him all red and stammering apologized but had long wished to do so.
I was still upset from happening, and my face was a mix of amazement and disbelief that what he interpreted as a rejection and a "violence", when I was able to return to me smiled sweetly and with the warmer tone and the sweet I thanked her, he was blown away by these words of mine and went back to stutter, he was so sweet when he did, in that I put my hand in her hair and started to mess up.
I left him with a smile, went into the house and I slumped in the doorway, I was happy.
ran to the computer and started to check the mail first and then finish that story I was writing for a while 'the existence of vampires, werewolves, demons and other magical creatures, but I had to stop immediately because of my head in the clouds.
So I opted to watch something on television, I hopped from channel to channel before you find anything remotely or an interesting documentary on the Eastern civilizations.
The next morning I slept late, staying in bed I enjoyed the feeling of protection that only knows how to make your bed, that protect the world from bad cold, and even as I was little I curled up under blankets to cover all .
I stayed in that position for several minutes, I decided to go out only when I saw that it was already 11:30, I took the phone that was on the table and with a gesture quite automatically checked and any calls or messages, and strangely I found 2 missed calls and messages, checked for first calls, one was a colleague of Anette's office and the second my brother Max, I I asked her why she called me, just him.
The reason was explained when I read the message, "you see gay Mint to bring your dirty buttocks that we discuss here at home" was always "very" nice to me.
I prepared myself, I took the car keys and walked to the driveway, but as soon as I opened the door I saw that Caleb was about to knock on the door, completely shocked.
I asked him what he was doing here in a very awkward and he told me he was here to ask one thing, but it was nothing important, smiled, told him that I had commitments for today very important and we have postponed our conversation upon my return, nodded.
I waved as I walked into the car and starts to move, to leave behind the calm that had enveloped me for several months since the last visit I made to my old house after the death of my adoptive father.
It took me an hour to get to your destination and when I found myself at the feet of the dwelling had a thrill, all of our meetings had not gone at all well.
I knocked and after a few moments I found myself in front of me, Max, was a sight quite disturbing, with top hair and eyes strangely too light a color very close to the ice and a color evil grin.
made me come in and I sat down on the couch he walked slowly and sat beside me, took my chin with his left hand and made me turn towards him, I asked him what he should talk to him and came in response ; to my lips in a whisper and told me that I had tried because he felt "much" missing me I was always infuse her brother, looked sideways at him, and he and I when we were brothers.
I tried to rebel from that taken but he was faster than me and I stretched out completely on the couch, I found him on top of me, I was confused and disoriented, what was he doing?
I slipped a hand under his shirt and whispered in my ear closer than it was exciting that my puzzled look, I divincolai and I jumped up from the sofa and went to the opposite side of the room, in a corner, but it was a big mistake I had been trapped alone, he rose slowly and always with a sneer, when he reached the corner where I stood with her arms pinned me against the wall of the paths escape, looked at me and then spoke again, "You know, I've always found fascinating, intelligent, we are left disappointed when you did the work, but now you are not instill too bad, "I was paralyzed, I could not understand how it was possible, he felt attracted to me? So why had always been bad for me? I did not have time to find answers to these questions that I had knocked him down and I had unbuttoned his shirt, slowly I felt her hands slide over my body when he went down as she smiled, looked at me and thanked me have not done anything at that point, I was still overwhelmed, paralyzed, I could not react to the movements.
Everything happened so fast, I was naked beneath him, I saw his body move inside me, pain, pleasure and anger, why?
When he finished he asked me who was that guy you went out and if he knew my true nature, his words were like a bolt from the blue, he knew him?
When I was able to return home was too late, I parked the car and walked towards the door, but a presence struck me, he was still waiting for them on the doorstep, blessed sleep leaning against the wall of the house.
I looked at him, made me so tenderly, I opened the door I put down my bag and then walked back, picked him up and took it upstairs to the guest room adagiai him on the bed and tucked the blankets, he was so sweet as he slept, the urge to kiss him was too strong so I leaned over and gave him a tender kiss on the forehead goodnight.
The next morning I awoke early and prepared breakfast for them both, I heard noises coming from upstairs so I went up the stairs to go see and when I opened the door I found a Caleb embarrassed that she covered up the neck with the sheet, I laughed at the sight of taste.
I informed him that breakfast was ready and if he could get it with me, so I left the room for annual leave them a bit 'of intimacy, when he came down he still had a sleepy look, you sat at the table and grabbed the toast with jam and snapped when he finished chewing apologized for falling asleep on the doorstep causing discomfort and especially thanked me for having hosted for the night.
When I asked him why he had stayed there said it was left to talk to me now that I thought I should probably talk to him yet I did not want my brother to tell us something about my true nature, I looked ready to tell him when he catch me unprepared, saying she felt something strong for me, very strong, which I loved.
When I heard those words coming from his lips looked down and my eyes suddenly became lucid, felt tingling in the nose are typical of those when you're about to cry, I tried to restrain myself, but it was useless because he noticed it and was alarmed, I asked if he had said something wrong or that I had could hurt but I denied it, I told him that his words had me filled my heart with joy but I was not really what I looked like, as it was understood he did not understand and asked for an explanation, took a deep breath and began to explain the principle everything that had happened to me, my life and what made me a sex change, I tried not to cry when I noticed his eyes on me that I judged, the end I told him that if he wanted to see again I would understand, stammering he told me that he needed to reflect that it had caught him suddenly. I nodded.
The next day at work there speak to me, so for several days, I for my part I could not look into his eyes, I loved him, I was conscious, I loved him the first time I had seen him, but I could not force it, my days passed slowly and monotonously, were all a work / Max house. spent a little time 'to tease and a bit' to satisfy his perverted desires notwithstanding I otherwise.
I was angry, disappointed and embittered. It had been two months since I told the truth about me in Caleb, I was resigned to the fact that I had lost, I had to make a right, so maybe it was that he must go, but one day on my return from a trip I found the source of the work at home, holding a bouquet of red roses, when he saw me and told me that he thought that what they had for me was not changed even though I was not actually a woman but a man, at which point I burst into tears, I went against him at the beginning and then slowly run into his arms crying and he received me in his arms open, he apologized to me been waiting so long but wanted to be sure of her feelings really, and now he had returned he would not have gone more and that he really loved me, man or woman.
That night we went out to dinner in a classy dinner and half took a velvet box from his tuxedo and put her on the table and then move them to me, I looked at him and he urged me to open the box, and its inside I found a beautiful diamond set in white gold ring, in which he asked me if I wanted to officially become her boyfriend, with tears in his eyes answered with a resounding yes! He was relieved and asked me to lighten the environment if you were to report back to me with the female or male, I laughed.
That night was one of the most beautiful when we got home we passed one of the sweetest nights but at the same time full of passion that never in my life I tried, I was so happy that during intercourse whispered in his ear that he was the right one for me, just for me.
passed six years since we got together and officially passed since that day of fabulous days, everyone's eyes were a normal couple with a boy and a girl, but no one except us knew that we were couples, normal, but not the normal that people are accustomed to seeing.
We were always together, one day while we were at home I spend my brother Max, I opened the shower and I did well to accommodate.
He just saw Caleb tried to smear until, given the limited success of his tactics, he tried one on my nature, but to his surprise Caleb replied that he knew for the past 6 years and now it was so in love with me that he had decided to marry me, so before my brother and I surprised divided between astonishment and joy bowed and asked me to marry him, as happened six years ago, I could not refuse and I nodded, weeping with joy.
The marriage took place in June of that year and it was so gorgeous and beautiful that it seemed a fairytale marriage, I was so happy.
may be true, there is a happy ending for all.
Why does not mean that what began badly must necessarily end badly, never judge a book by its cover, we must strive to understand the true nature of each of us, and just reading our book, we can truly understand those inner us. Never offend those whose tastes different from yours because it is always a form of love and this is important. A huge kiss
spouses
Esperanza and Caleb.
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